Get out of your own way!

*deep breath....here goes my first blog post...on my Grandmother's 84th Birthday, hope I don't disappoint her. If its all over the place, please forgive me....Looking forward to hearing from you! :-)

We're a little over a month into the new year and I have to say I'm off to a good start.
Over the holidays (starting around Thanksgiving) I thought to myself what can I do to change things.  Things, anything....I was content with my life but I don't believe I was totally happy.  Although, I couldn't pin it down to just one thing.  All things in my life were/are "OK" but I don't want to settle with just OK I want Great! I want Super! I want Better! I want change.

How can I accomplish that change? I looked in the mirror and examined myself.  I had to learn to get out of my own way.  I realized I was Toxic to myself. Toxic by not being open to new things.  Toxic by just going through the everyday motions without even thinking about it.  Toxic in becoming angry or upset over things that obviously were out of my control and that weren't going to change.....so why be upset over it right? Right! So time to move on from situations, things, people and places that I have no control over.  Not that I want to control everything (working on that too...lol!).

So I started changing little things about how I do things, says things, respond to things (baby steps, I'm human and for the most part I really do Love myself so don't want to change "who I am" just what I do & how I do them).  Hope that makes sense :-)

I do more reading and am open to doing more learning. Taking classes here and there.  Taking notes, mental and written.  Going out more.  Saying YES! and following through more (you know not talking myself out of plans).  You see before I would want to do more things and go out more but I would not; I would limit myself based on those circumstances I have no control over that got me upset and ruin my mood.  It would domino into me not going anywhere, doing anything and hence growing my anger more because I didn't do anything....BLAH! :-P

I have my own business that I've been running for over 15 years (9 of those years full time).  I use to love what I do, really-really love. But through the years, somewhere along the way I've lost my passion.  It's just work now.  Work is good but I don't function that way.  I love being happy (I'm sure most people do to), I love working where it doesn't feel like work (again, I'm sure many feel that way)...I've been blessed to have that in my life.  I don't know where things changed.

I'm not giving up my business (can't do it...kind of attached).  But I have ventured into something new! (I'll tell you about that at a later date). Something out of my comfort zone! Something challenging! Time to WAKE UP! I was introduced to this new business venture based on a conversation I had about wanting to change, my new exercise plans, my new eating habits and about taking better care of my health (I'm pretty healthy and I want to keep it that way, so I've been cautious about what I put in my body & on my body...but we'll discuss that another time).

This happened around December 1st and I believe God had his hands in it all.  I've been putting it out there through prayer.  I've been talking to God about guiding me, showing me, talking to me about my path.  And this is what presented itself....it's a different kind of way of life and doing business for me but I really truly feel its the right path for me.

Step ONE in becoming a Toxic Free YOU: Get out of your own way!  
Step TWO: Be OPEN to change....with God by your side all things are possible! 
Step THREE: Have FAITH!!! ...in God & in yourself! 

Blissfully Blessed!
Gloria Martinez

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I am the Lord your God who grasps your strong hand, who says to you, Don't fear; I will help you.

Isaiah 41: 13